redeployment

the end in sight

terrifies me

she is grown
my big girl
no more falling asleep in mommy's arms
full sentences
no more fragments in third person

no more poverty
no more worrying
no more charity

ok, more worrying
less pity

he'll be here
besides me
sleeping while I ruminate
waking while I dream
driving my car from my house because they both belong to us

I am no longer the center of my universe

fingerpaints

I miss you
cooking dinner
baby on the floor
geese flying by

Take me there.

Take me where you are.

Because I miss dancing with you.

She fingerpaints.

Colors from my heart
the mottled red, blood blue, festering yellow

I stagnate from loneliness

You are so gone.